.Wednesday, March 7, 2012 ' 7:18 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
the saddest in my life goes to when and why this thing happens again.. i don't wish anyone to see this. hopefully the dying of this blog makes no1 interested in this again such that its the only place i can vent n scream about.
cant stand the fact that every1 else know b4 me.. why?? isit that a breakup needs to be known thru friends then to have the courage to say?? whats the actual BIG reason that ur leaving? health? $? friends? family? mom? or your own dignity?? no one knows the exact answer execpt yourself.
i cant hate you. for i love you more. letting you go.. isnt my choice. its a must. never giving me the option to say no.. but only to accept the fact that your gone.. what else can i say? nothing.. nothing that i can ever say ... your gone. never coming back. no matter how much lies im guna tell myself... you aint coming back... waves goodbye. take it leave it and i guess i'll be hurt forever. no1 can ever mend this broken heart anymore.. not for the same scenario twice.. never. ever. again.. throughly and thoroughly hurt. a broken heart wont be mended again...
i'll be back to square to my F---ing work play sleep eat work play sleep eat momentum. no one can change it again.. bbfs. sorry. if u dont wanna join me in it.. let me do it by myself... i'm ok... no.. im not.. but to show the others im ok... i'll SHOW im OK..!! :O
to the choice of being OK~~~~ IM OK~~!! *smilez*
~signing off
by a broken-hearted gurl that never wants love again
. ' 9:18 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
School gonna re-open.. ewww~~ i've been enjoying toooo much holidays to get back into schooling mood.. pfft. and.. whoot promoted to next sem lol.. was super afraid would fail and flunk like crazy.. gonna have to study like noob next sem lol.. >.< !!
I missed FUn FUN and more FFUN!! :(
ok ok. fineeeee buck up and dash for better results next sem.. jiayous!!
.Monday, September 6, 2010 ' 2:30 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
been real stressed up these days. exams are just round the corner and i'm so not in the state to do any studying. :( Staring at the book, looking to be mugging hard and yet nothing gets fixed or stuck in my brains. they're like empty shellsss! Its my future.. I'm concerned but grrr why am i not taking any resposibility at all? Come on. Study!! No matter how stress you are.. go study. start paving a road leading to your future... you'll come to a point that you won't regret that you had mugged real hard when you're young :) good luck all who are taking their exam. :) ~Mugggg Hard :D~
.Thursday, September 2, 2010 ' 1:55 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
This few days have been suuper bored.. One of my best friends have went back home. :( and ohmg i forgot all about it! sheeesh. how stupid i am huh? :( I missssss her!! Another friend of mine have not been working with me :( she somehow decided to swop a place? i dunno i hope she really comes back! i miss her too. been very empty in my life this few weeks. can someone fill it up for me? Maybe? Exams are round the corner yet i've not studied a single thing yet! oh my goooodnness! everytime i open my book. i'll go. SIAN AH!. save me! but i know. grumbling and complaining isn't a way to solve matters ... ok * jiayous!*
*trust trust trust* !
.Friday, August 13, 2010 ' 12:09 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
Leadership is buried within each and everyone of us. We have leadership. Its only up to us to make it into a better one to serve and lead others.
Responsibility. Each and everyone should be responsible for our ownself and also for our actions.Being a class rap, you should also be responsible for your fellow classmates. You are like the leader of the class.. leading them on. Its your responsibilty to ensure EACH and everyone of the classmates receive a particular message. RESPONSIBILTY when failed becomes IRRESPONSIBLE!. by then, NO words would actually replace what others would think of you.
Imagine you made a CRAP trip all the way to school and to find out that there is actually NO class?? Ouch. yea. OUCH! it hurts that others actually KNEW and some of us did not!. Sigh. WHAT A BULLSHIT day lol... this actuallly MADE me flare up... You know. ITS CRAP! WTF! I wouldn't forgive the person who had sent out SOME of the sms-es. really. i WONT! don't ever expect me to talk to him for the 2nd half semester.. I swear I WONT! i never will.. maybe time will make me have less hatred for him. BUT. yupp at this particular moment i know i wont. He doesn't feel that his in the wrong, --- JUST because he didn't have all our numbers. OK. fail!! he failed many areas. no1. as a class rep, without having everyone's No. no2. he failed sending out to EVERYONE even those that he had their no. no3. he did not use other announcing methods to ensure everyone got the message. no4. he refuse to admit his MISTAKE (worst of all ok?) no5. never apologise to those he did not sent out the info to. (which is A LOT of US). arh. i dunno how many more failures am i going to come out with lols.!!
Chill. yea many would tell me that... I don't like to flare up.. but WHY isit that people like to make me flare up with these crap? sigh. You know. replacement class is on 16 aug. monday. well YEA i had a friend b'dae then. =( i promised to join them for lunch and WTF because they didn't INFORM me on Wednesday.... all of my friends were pissed with me.. yea. sorry. they kind of have to change to dinner.. =( just because of me. =( i feeeeel damn BAD now lah!! WTF i won't forgive you (you know who u are). really i WON't!
.Thursday, August 12, 2010 ' 10:11 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
Its only now that i finally feel relieved. Well, for temporary only. In about 3 weeks time, the major exam is going to commence. Well i haven't learn a single thing about them and its kind of got a "die" feeling admist them. Facing more difficulties and obstacles make me stronger and gives me more courage to face even tough difficulties. I can't come to regret that why i didn't pay attention in class only now. All i can do is to study even harder now and make it for the final exams. My friends have been there for me when i needed them most. My working friends were always there to give me a shoulder and make me laugh no matter how down i was. I might be smiling on the outside but yet suffering on the inside. You'll never know.
